College

In my last blog I am going to write about my thoughts and feelings about my first semester of college. Being the first person in my family to go straight to a four year was different because I came into the school not knowing what to expect. The first couple weeks was very easy. I was happy because I was doing very well. Unfortunately that took a 180, more work was handed out. Now it feels like I have so much to do in such little time. College is when everything counts. It can make or break my future. We have one month left and I'm slowly starting to get the hang of everything again. Ive been planning all my school work and writing down exam dates and important date. I plan on continuing this for next semester. I've been in a weird emotional mood and I know that there is a reason for the way life is working out right now but I still have some little regrets. If I knew how college was I would've came into school with a different approach. I've learned so many new things ...

As the semester is coming closer to an end, I have sort of been getting the hang of school now. Recently I've been trying to focus more on school so I can have a distraction because if I don't have a distraction I start feeling sad. These mood swings have been causing me to want to get my act straight and focus more on my education and less about relationship and other things that are unnecessary at the moment. I feel like my happiness and education should come first. Today I have finished four assignments including this one. I like being kept busy. Unfortunately if I work on too much I start getting anxiety because my brain cannot process so much information from so many subjects at the same time anymore. To kill more time and to keep me even more busy I am planning to start going to the gym again and keep it up. I think the gym will help me take things off of my mind and i'll also get healthier which is a bonus. Hopefully i'll stop feeling this way soon because i jus...

With everything that has been happening in my life lately I realized I need new ways to distract myself and keep me busy. I feel like its hard for me to do this because I am mentally and physically drained everyday. When I come to school, I just want to go home and sleep. The people that I do talk to have been telling me that I should join clubs and a sorority next year. I honestly don't have any interests in any of those. I don't have any passion for anything actually. It sucks because there are kids who are passionate about art, music and other stuff. I don't have anything. What I do want is to make some new friends. Ive made a couple but I want to make closer friends at school. Its hard to make new friends when the feeling doesn't seem mutual. If I feel like that other person has no interests in being my friend or just doesn't want to talk to me then I won't talk or make conversation with them. I know thats probably a bad thing and that I should just make con...